Posted by beautiful_mind on January 30, 2003, at 1:20:26
I went to the cafe tonight to type at my computer and found it very difficult. When I entered the cafe it was mostly crowded and the line in front was short. A man stood behind me and sung a tune to the music in the cafe and was disturbing which I think might be one reason I was very hard to get in the groove of things. I am bothered by people when they stand too close. He and "his" family were standing there in this way. It bothers me, when I can't control my moods and I feel almost in fear of the man and situation. This is the same cafe I was thrown out of when the manager saw me drawing with pastels and blowing the dust a little too close to his dish he was carrying. Unfortunately I had an emotional breakdown at home after he reported the situation to the cops because I argued with the idiot! I had seen him in the last few excursions but there he was tonight giving me a hard line stare at the register, anyway I went to the hospital in the mental ward for the second time in my lifetime since my illnese approxiamately 12 years ago. The hospital experience lasted 2 weeks, I sometimes feel a need to blame the situation at the cafe a night ago during last year when this manager "caused" my ultimate breakdown and hospitalization. Tonight I was disturbed being diagnosis with Schizo-affective disorder depressive type and I am seeing a doctor once a week whom is very helpful and the meds have stablized me since the hospital I'm taking Risperidal, Prozac, and Depakote. I left the cafe a little earlier tonight. I don't know why. Except that when a girl asked to sit next to me I found it more uncomfortable with the lessening of space, at the counter. I am depressed tonight, but looking forward to a sleep for the morning ahead. I was typing a creative story I started last night into my computer at the cafe where I was. I am new here to this website.
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thread:35932
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