Posted by Miller on January 13, 2003, at 18:43:20
In reply to Miller, How did it go today?, posted by Dinah on January 13, 2003, at 18:02:26
Dinah,
I SWEAR this is no joke!! He yawned like 5 times while I was there. So, in my mind, when I walked in I was nervous and scared and didn't think I could go through with it. I was thinking about faxing him or leaving a message...
So, I begin by telling him that I was so hurt and disappointed about him not taking this leave of mine seriously. I told him, straight out, that I have 3 weeks to get my life together. I don't expect him to devote each hour of those 3 weeks to me... During this emotional (and scary) speach of mine, he yawned! So, the appointment went.
Believe it or not, I think it is FUNNY!!!! Last night with my online shrink, we had a really profound and emotional exchange. For the first time in years, I was sobbing. I was crying FOR ME. I think the strength of knowing there is someone capable of helping me made today much easier, with or without yawns!!!!
Thanks for asking Dinah. I am feeling much better as far as suicide goes. I am having a hard time dealing with all of these emotions I have, but not in a desperate way.
Please tell me you are doing well. I am so glad you are still here. WHen everyone was being blocked or leaving, I was very concerned about if you would stay or not. I am glad to see some people come back. I hope Beardy does.
Thank you for caring enough to ask.
-Miller
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