Posted by Mr Cushing on December 17, 2002, at 12:52:54
In reply to Loosing hope, posted by daizy on December 17, 2002, at 12:39:12
Yes it does end if you're taking the right measures to make it end. I'm Bi-Polar (you know, like with the crazy highs and lows) with mixed episodes (meaning that I can actually be cycling through both at once... or at least it feels that way).I lived life like that for about 10 years or so. It was either dead depression or so manic that everything seemed to be going on fast-forward, like in double speed. My thoughts, the way I talked, the way I moved, everything... the rest of the world though, they seemed to be going in slo-mo. I learned to survive on about 3-4 hours of sleep a night for a very long time. Like months...
Right now I'm on 500mg of Depakote, 20mg of Celexa, and 1-1.5mg of Klonopin a day. I no longer feel any side effects from the medications I'm taking, and honestly, this is the first time in as long as I can remember where I actually feel "good". But it doesn't just lie with the medications, after they start taking effect you have to learn to change your lifestyle and the way that you view certain things. But medication is basically the first step, and you "might" have to learn to accept the fact that you're going to need it long-term. For me, I'm going to need it for the rest of my life, but you know... I really don't mind that idea anymore. I feel so in control of myself for once, it's like the roller-coaster has stopped and I was able to get off. For everything good in life you have to sacrifice something, and if it means that i have to take pills in order to feel like this, then Hell Yeah, I've got no problems doing this for the rest of my life. Honestly, I can't imagine going back to trying to survive without it. What a mess I would have eventually made out of my life...
So don't give up hope, if I can survive for 10 years like that and I can get better, then there's no reason why you can't. You just have to learn to fight it.
poster:Mr Cushing
thread:33474
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