Posted by Mal on November 20, 2002, at 15:55:47
Yesterday I was at a restaurant in my (very small) hometown with my husband and his family. By the time I was eating dessert, a guy walked by our table that I recognized. OMG, it was a boyfriend from high school/college, (our history is quite ugly) plus about 75 pounds! He is short and couldn't really afford the extra weight, so he really looked bad. I didn't say anything, and he didn't notice me (which was fine- I would have been vvvveeeerrrry uncomfortable if he had). But on the inside, I got all tense and fluttery. Not in the "ooh baby" way, but like an adrenaline rush- fight or flight! What was that about??
Anyhow, it all ended anticlimactically. I don't think he noticed/recognized me, but I think his Mom (who was there too) might have.This is probably awful of me to admit, but part of me wishes he had spoken. I am feeling quite smug, actually. And seeing him reinforced my knowledge that I am sooo glad we didn't end up together, although at the time I thought he was IT.
But this also leads me to wonder why this chance meeting was in the cosmic plan. And this isn't the first time I have noticed him when he didn't see me. On the interstate once I saw a car resembling the one his mother had all those years ago, and as my husband and I passed, it was him! If I still lived there this wouldn't surprise me at all, but I now live over 100 miles away. I know there are only a few restaurants in our home town, but I hardly ever go out to eat when I am there. I don't have any idea where he lives now. I am usually there only on weekends. Why do we suffer the unpleasant coincidences??
I suppose it's to make us appreciate the lives we have made, and be glad of our good but painful trials and decisions.
I probably won't ever mention it to my husband. Guess I'll just hug him a little tighter.
rambling...
Mal
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