Posted by susan C on October 29, 2002, at 15:18:20
an update:
oops, I am mentioning medication...but I like this board better...
In September I added Verapamil to Depakote. Since then, I have been progressively improving...I was thinking this morning, it is like I am swimming in this warm nutrient soup...while looking out over a calm lake. There is some currents of disturbance under the surface, but, in general, I feel great.I have picked up projects I put down two years ago, I have been cooking again...using a knife, figuring things out clearly with out being overwhelmed. I have been social with real bodies...thanking you all here over and over for helping me keep my social skills up.
When I first started talking to people again, I had some real duzies of miscommmunication, and, over communication. As in, telling them WAY to much about how I was feeling. Over time, I got to the point where I could just keep my mouth shut and try to keep to the subject at hand, if I could keep up.
It has been a long time, five years...of turmoil. Assuming, and that is all I can do at this point of only two months of relief, this continues, I have been thinking, I may need some new skills to gain some perspective of the time past.
So, a vote to all of you... Do I: A. Just Ignore It And It Will Go Away; B. Review and Analyize; c. some combination
Also, this new "me" is so different, so relaxed, comfortable and understanding. Do I just:
1. go with it
2. find a support group for "people who think they are survivors of mental illness" and go to the 12 step meetings
3. otherThanks
insecure mouse walking in the leaves
poster:susan C
thread:31771
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