Posted by Gabbix2 on October 6, 2002, at 15:59:03
In reply to Re: In the Wee Small Hours, posted by Ginjoint on October 6, 2002, at 11:04:07
I used to be a recreational sleeper.
I could fall asleep anywhere.
In the past few months I've not slept more than 2 hours in a row. The night before last I finally gave in and took a pres. sleeping pill "Starnoc"
I got 45 whole minutes.I'm plagued with those fearful thoughts,
I feel like a kid who's awakened from a nightmare and still scared, waiting for morning when things seem somehow normal. Except I'm always awake and morning never happens.
I can't begin to describe it.
I read somewhere it's like vomiting without a mouth. That about says it for me.I used to take Ativan too. I loved it. That blessed sigh of relief. Eventually though, the rebound anxiety it caused (unbenknownst to me at the time) drove me to more than one suicide attempt. When I had an A.D. that worked it quelled the anxiety, though it took a long time for that to happen. I wish I could offer some tangible advice, so far I haven't found a consistant solution.
You have my empathy.
It is excruciating feeling as if you're floating alone in the universe..
(at least there aren't any open mic nights though)
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