Posted by Roo on October 3, 2002, at 9:31:38
How do you know? Like I've been feeling close...
but I _know_ I won't kill myself...I wouldn't do it
to my parents...but there are times when I think about it
constantly and I don't feel safe and I feel constantly _tempted_.
I also feel at times like I'm in almost unbearable mental
pain and I can't function. I've got a really simple job that a trained
monkey could do, but right now I can't concentrate and sometimes I get
this overwhelmed panic attack feeling (I guess I'm "cycling") and I'm crying all
the time and I can't even do my simple monkey work. I've thought a couple of times...do
I need to be in the hospital? Or am I overreacting? I was at
a trusted friend's last night and she paused and kind of carefuly
said "...have you ever thought of hospitalization?"...she said she had
thought of mentioning it before, but she was afraid I would get angry or
be offended...so obviously _other_ people have thought this about me.I guess I just don't know the rules about the hospitalization thing. I guess
I thought you had to either have had attempted suicide or definitely going to do it.
I don't really fit into those categories.What if you just can't stand it, but you know you have to stand it?
poster:Roo
thread:30766
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