Posted by Mal on September 11, 2002, at 21:15:27
In reply to Re: Hello- new member » Mal, posted by BeardedLady on September 11, 2002, at 18:14:45
Hello Beardy, & everyone!
Coping skills... Well, I don't know what I "do" to manage. I guess I keep counting my blessings, as cheesy as that sounds. I have friends I can discuss things with. BTW, the self medicating with alcohol doesn't really work- it just numbs me up for a few hours then I am severely HUNG OVER for a day- I DO NOT recommend it. I wind up loathing myself for getting too drunk and making myself sick. In fact, I have pretty much quit drinking at all because I have had a harder time (in the last year or so) stopping before a nasty hangover is inevitable.
I have a pretty therapeutic hobby (sewing/quilting) that keeps me going (although I do a fair amount of cursing as I work). When I am working on something, I feel like I am building something and not wasting my life.
Sometimes my "episodes" are precipitated by my making a stupid mistake of some sort, and I can't seem to give myself a break. I might be an overachiever. I expect a lot of myself.
When I am down I don't have any energy, I can't get motivated to work on things I normally enjoy, can't make a decision at all! There is a little voice (my voice, not like schizophrenia or whatever) in my head telling me what a loser I am. My productivity at work really suffers, but I do make it to work. With every motion I ask myself, "Ultimately, what is the point??" I am not one of the "anxious" depressed. I usually want to disappear, crawl in a hole.
But right now I feel pretty good. I have recently made a goofy mistake, and I didn't hate myself for more than 1 day. I'm keeping my house reasonably clean, and I am working on a quilt.
Anyhow, enough about me. Maybe I can be of some help to someone sometime. Have a good night...
Mal
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