Posted by Gabbi on August 3, 2002, at 20:46:22
In reply to Re: Just don't like people anymore... » Gabbi, posted by BarbaraCat on August 3, 2002, at 16:16:51
BarbaraCat
That was really interesting, and much appreciated, I could relate to so much of what you said, especially the part about "hoping to get the answering machine'
It does get so confusing, because I do yearn for friendships, but my world has turned upside down the last 2 years, and my previous friends I met very naturally, whereas now I would have to go out and "make friends" which is a foreign concept to me especially because I'm not one of those people who enjoys "mainstream" things.
I wish I didn't have to clarify, but I certainly don't think its better, just different, and it makes it more difficult to bond with people.
I had no idea about the SSRIs possibly enabling this, but I do have "moments" perhaps one day or just a few hours where I suddenly recall how I used to just do things, and I get excited, and see things as a challenge not a horrifying struggle. So I know I'm capable of feeling differently, and I have scoured every possible reason for why this "awake" feeling might have happened but I've never found anything consistant to attribute it too and it inevitably dissappears.Sorry this is so long,
I really appreciate your input, especially because I didn't HOLLER for it, that was really thoughtful, and useful to boot.Gabbi-Gabbi
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