Posted by fiona on July 27, 2002, at 15:28:21
In reply to Definately not an expert... » fiona, posted by SandraDee on July 27, 2002, at 14:47:22
My Mum thinks she is in the Waltons, and having 2 daughters with bipolar disorders has seriously put a big whopping scratch across the lenses of her rose tinted glasses. At the moment the blame is being bounced around a little (cos it couldn't possibly be her) but she is very good at the guilt thing.
Don't get me wrong, I know she loves me, but EVERYTHING always seems to be conditional. I guess I just don't measure up (my therapist will give me a row for saying that) to her idea of the perfect daughter and it annoys me that she can't see me for who I am. When I am around her I feel like I am 5 years old, and she still treats me that way a lot of the time too.
She constantly makes me feel bad about about myself, then when I say anything she goes on about how she "doesn't know how I got THAT idea in my head". I feel like screaming at her. Oh dear, I am getting myself all annoyed now. Aaaaargh!
Sorry, didn't mean to scream, but I really needed to.Thanks for your help anyway :)
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