Posted by Dinah on July 16, 2002, at 2:38:21
These last few days have been so much better than last week, when the demons of self injury tormented me day and night. Now it's just night.
It's like my whole skin is buzzing, humming, and my ears are ringing along with it. And the self injury thoughts are trying to trick me. "Dinah" they say, "If you just cut your skin, the electrical field that is causing your skin to buzz will break. You will have peace from the incessant hum." Because it does feel like an electrical buzz. Like a cell phone on vibrate. But I have promised not to cut. And I like to think that my word is worth something.
I do like the giddy days, but they aren't worth the buzzy nights. I have to stand up to my pdoc and tell him I want to wean completely off this Effexor. The benefits are not worth the costs.
The extra Klonopin should kick in soon.
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