Posted by Penny on July 9, 2002, at 18:18:15
In reply to Hi Penny! How are you doing?, posted by Dinah on July 9, 2002, at 9:29:11
Dinah,
Good to hear from you! Hope things are going better your way...
Right now I'm feeling extremely anxious. When I get anxious I start heading downhill, so that's not good.
I do think the IOP program is good, though. At least when we have the regular therapist. I don't know when I'll be discharged. I've got five objectives I'm supposed to accomplish before being discharged and I've only done one. Next week will be my fourth week in the program, and I'm not sure at the moment that I'm doing better. What I have done is start to get in touch with the anger that I've buried deep inside of me, but that takes time. And I've all but shut down this week b/c the regular therapist and my personal therapist were on vacation. I won't see my personal therapist until this Saturday and the group therapist until next Monday. And I really, really don't like the substitute therapist. She was all about "let's think POSITIVE!!!" , when all I've heard is how I need to get in touch with the anger inside of me, from both my therapists. She doesn't believe in that, but thank goodness the regular therapist will be back soon, then I can get back to work.
And, of course, being out of a job is really getting to me, although I'm busier than I was with a full-time job. Between babysitting and freelancing, it's really crazy. And I'm not sure how well I'm handling the stress. Not well at all, I think.
Oh...how's this for weird....I woke up at three a.m. this morning with limericks running through my head! Many of them!!! They were all dark subjects too. Very very strange. That's what I get for not taking my ambien.
Pdoc's thinking that the next step for me is lithium. So, we'll see. At least I still feel good about him, even though this med thing is taking a really long time.
Thanks for asking. Let me know how you're doing!!!
Love, Penny
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