Posted by IsoM on July 3, 2002, at 0:47:40
In reply to I'm sorry...., posted by kid_A on July 2, 2002, at 12:13:33
Kid, I went to the page you made with Photoshop - the one where Dr. Bob's recent pix have come from. When I saw your picture, it took my breath away & hurt so. There's a look in your eyes *very* much like my youngest son. You & him even look alike. While I dearly love all my sons equally as much, a mom has different feelings of love for each child. My youngest (they're all men now) is the one who's most like me in the emotional side. His depression & feelings of hopelessness are something that I've been unable to help. He lives on his own besides, but he doesn't want me to always be trying to remedy things for him. I know enough to back off & let him decide, but it still hurts.
A mother spends so many years soothing hurts & nursing her children through illness that it's hard to back off & not do anything. Just being with him sometimes & talking & letting him talk without saying anything back is all I can do. That & letting him know how much I love him & how I always will.
I see you & read your posts & it hurts. I want to make things better for you. I want so badly to help but have no idea what to do or say. You touch something deep & tender inside me. Excuse me for saying, but I want to hold you & rock you. It brings all the mother out in me.
Don't ever say you're sorry. How can someone hurting so bad ever say they're sorry. I don't feel 'guilty' not helping you, but I feel so helpless & that's why I'm sorry.
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