Posted by kid_A on May 16, 2002, at 20:29:46
In reply to Re: HALFWAY TO CRAZY, posted by Phil on May 16, 2002, at 18:30:13
WANTING TO DIESince you ask, most days I cannot remember.
I walk in my clothing, unmarked by that voyage.
Then the most unnameable lust returns.Even then I have nothing against life.
I know well the grass blades you mention
the furniture you have placed under the sun.But suicides have a special language.
Like carpenters they want to know which tools.
They never ask why build.Twice I have so simply declared myself
have possessed the enemy, eaten the enemy,
have taken on his craft, his magic.In this way, heavy and thoughtful,
warmer than oil or water,
I have rested, drooling at the mouth-hole.I did not think of my body at needle point.
Even the cornea and the leftover urine were gone.
Suicides have already betrayed the body.Still-born, they don't always die,
but dazzled, they can't forget a drug so sweet
that even children would look on and smile.To thrust all that life under your tongue! --
that, all by itself, becomes a passion.
Death's a sad bone; bruised, you'd say,and yet she waits for me, year and year,
to so delicately undo an old would,
to empty my breath from its bad prison.Balanced there, suicides sometimes meet,
raging at the fruit, a pumped-up moon,
leaving the bread they mistook for a kiss,leaving the page of a book carelessly open,
something unsaid, the phone off the hook
and the look, whatever it was, an infection.
Anne Sexton
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thread:23858
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