for sar

Posted by Phil on April 13, 2002, at 8:44:52

I......have had to live my own way
It's just day to day
It feels like dying
I......have had this demon for years
Brings tears upon tears
Alone I'm crying
I......have lost more than gained
And hiding this shame
Requires some lying
Maybe if......God loved me more
He would open the door
But He's not trying
If this is all I live for
Then why live at all
Why ask for love and joy
While just hoping not to fall
When I know I'm just the same
As those that hurt me then
I've tried to change my lot in life
But I'm too tired to try again...
~~~~~
Will God...swing the doors open wide
For those dead inside
Can He...put some hope in my death
Should I hold my breath...no, I think not
So what becomes of the souls that are lost
We've paid the ultimate psychic cost
Of walking dead in our own time
And living life outside the lines
So, do I go straight to hell
For taking my life by my own hand
Because of mental illness that wasn't a choice
Listen to her bastard; listen for the fading voice

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for sar Phil 4/13/02
Re: for sar » Phil Shar 4/13/02
thanks phil. (nm) Krazy Kat 4/16/02

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