Posted by Zo on April 9, 2002, at 4:11:08
In reply to Re: Handle suicide.can't really.don't know what to » Zo, posted by kazoo on April 9, 2002, at 3:48:16
Thanks, 'zoo, for taking it all so graciously. It's damn hard to also convey the *tone* in which one posts. My "No" was really more a writerly gambit, a way of correcting oneself on the page. But it was all very lighthearted, if that's the right word, said with a certain trust. Trusting each other means one has a certain latitude, that one's comments are taken in their best possible light. A certain giving of the benefit. Which I certainly appreciate your extending to me. I'll tell you sometime about being older.
For one, it means more and more a steady stream of obituaries of people you know, in some way, have known all your life. A stream that only enlarges. This only just struck me. Maybe George Harrison going. But I also got it, after some agonizing: Ah. This is life.
And you younger ones, you're having the same, right now. Your ranks are thinned by one. By one important, special, dear to you one. It reminds you of your vulnerability, and I know if I were still suicidal, it would remind me how. . .easy, to leave one's pain. Someone said to me, You can't. You'll leave such pain behind, for everyone.
This is an important time to anchor in one's feelings. To love Sar, even as she has gone--and to love oneself enough to Stay Here!
Zo
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