Posted by IsoM on April 1, 2002, at 21:50:37
In reply to miserable.........., posted by LiLi80 on April 1, 2002, at 20:30:47
Lili, your mind is still good, it's just not sharp right now. Depression is such a creativity & intelligence destroyer. I don't care how brilliant someone might be, depression makes them dumb - I've seen it happen to everyone I've known when they're having really down. It did (does) for me, it did for my son & heck, he's got an IQ of 155! But when he was depressed, he said his brain just wouldn't work & he'd break down into tears & feeling suicidal.
Lili, I'm not suggesting what you should do. All I can give you is my case. I know this'll sound conceited but I have a brilliant mind, high CQ (creativity quotient) & high IQ but I've decided university isn't for me (after a few attempts). My ADD limits what I can manipulate in my mind at one time even when I'm not depressed. I can't handle the heavy course loads, labs & endless nights of homework (& not enough sleep).
I've decided to stick to work where I can use what I do know but can be physically active too which I very much need. In one way, I feel like I'm settling for less - I know my mind's capable of much more but my psyche isn't. I know that in Mensa & in other high IQ societies, there's many people from common walks of life such as garbage collectors, housewives, gardeners, etc. Having high intelligence & a successful, well-paying career doesn't guarantee happiness by any means.
What I'm trying to say is:
Do you need to finish your university now? Can you take time off for even a year or two, if necessary, to re-evaluate your life & goals? What good is it to try to finish all the accumulated homework if the outcome is suicide? The accumulation of homework (& falling further behind in some courses while trying to do the piles of homework in others) when I was at university was a MAJOR source of stress & anxiety for me. And it only got worse. I finally decided I needed out. Lili, rethink where you're going, please.
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