Posted by trouble on March 28, 2002, at 12:47:08
In reply to Re: Still ANGRY!!!!!!!!! » LiLi80, posted by kid_A on March 27, 2002, at 13:43:46
Lilli,
I agree w/ the Kid, that's a very good place he's describing. It is an attitude. Feelings, however, are not attitudes.
I do not believe you can "put" yourself in the place Kid_A's describing.
Twenty years ago, on the job, I had to play this motherfucking Elvis Costello song twice a day, and every time the opening line came on, I'd choke on it, frozen w/ a terrible yearning to know how that might feel, for a single second of my motherfucking life, to be able to say, and fuck the aplomb,
"Oh I used to be disgusted,
now I try to be amused."I found my haven in ANGER MANAGEMENT, w/ the emphasis on the first word; Anger, w/ a capital "A".
First comes Anger, only then can you get anywhere near the "management" of it.That's life. We cannot boss our feelings around, and the more we try to resist them, the more our feelings will boss us.
I wonder if you aren't resisting your anger Lilli, all the intensity and hysteria you express looks like bullshit to me, good bullshit, threatening gestures, it's a style, a strong style, a way of being Lilli in the world, but it's very easy to get locked into a style, instead of allowing it to take you where you need to go.
So, IMO you ARE on the right track, a long and arduous track, with trainwrecks up ahead.
I'm the angriest person on this board thumbs down and I want you to know I've survived my Trainwrecks.
As you are surviving yours, right now, in this instant. Take a deep breath w/me, Lilli, and listen to your heart beat: I AM, I AM, I AM....
trouble
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