Posted by Willow on March 25, 2002, at 11:37:29
In reply to Re: Too close? Kazoo? » Willow, posted by kazoo on March 25, 2002, at 2:32:16
> Willow, my dear, what's this all about?
I am pouting?
Before I go any further, I want you to know I'm harmless. You already know that I've placed you
in a special little hidden treasure box in my heart. Part of me wants it out, so I can't feel it inside me. How much easier would it be if I could touch it or even place it on a shelf in my own room? There I could envy the jewels and even open it up to pry through the contents gathered over time. Only then once I've been able to feel it with my hands would the novelty wear off, just like a treasured child's toy? (Bitter tears if it is misplaced, but totally ignored when it is safely tucked away.)Someone once asked me what do I have to offer in a relationship? The answer shocked me!
Absolutely nothing! I can offer a hug, wipe a tear, lend an ear, and even give encouragement.
But beyond that? Should I list what it costs to have me as a friend, not even to go near a
partnership? I think a part of our self-worth comes from purpose and being of use. N'est pas?Just ignore me and my blithering, because I've been told I'm having a major depressive episode
which is enraging my anxiety into unmanageable epic proportions. I've become the crazed
housewife that I never had inspirations of being, popping lorazepam like tic tacs, enjoying the
calm they bring. (My psych is telling me to take them if they make me happy at this point. Did I
tell you he raised his voice at me? Is that legal? Ethical?) I also perceive that everyone is seeing me in a negative light. (At work I'm useless, spouse finds me a despicable, psych annoyed, and you even my friend find me too clingy.) This has been explained to me that I'm projecting my own vision of my self-worth onto others. It all makes sense, but that doesn't change how I feel.Enough of my whining! What did the post mean? There was no hidden meaning. The first song
reflects how I think I’m being a pest and yourself telling me to back off. I had asked for a man’s opinion on the subject and what I got from the conversation was that it’s not in the scheme of natural things. Does that make sense? The second one should have read, “He smiled so sweetly!” And finally, “So tell me now and I won't ask again Will you still love me tomorrow?” selfish me just looking for reassurance.And then going through archives, not that long ago you suggested a chat room. Yet you never
use it?And how was your week? You always have something interesting to post. Alas, you are tiring of
us. I’ve done what I most had not wanted to do, have driven you away. But I pray in reality you
are just happily busy with the real world.Well thanks for listening. Just seeing your name as always puts a spring in my step and a little gleam in my eye.
Weird Willow
I know a little pussy,
Her coat is silver gray,
She lives down in the meadow,
not very far away.She'll always be a pussy,
She'll never be a cat,
For she's a pussy willow.Now what do you think of that!
Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow Meow
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