Posted by kiddo on March 19, 2002, at 6:49:17
In reply to still cutting..., posted by ELA on March 19, 2002, at 4:38:34
Emma-
I'm sorry I have no sage advice for you, and will probably say nothing you don't already know or haven't heard before. I wanted to respond because I know too well how it feels to be where you are.
I've cut/burned myself in the past because I wanted to feel physical pain to relieve the emotional, and because there was no feeling at all and wanted to feel something, anything at all.
'Something' is wrong or you wouldn't have the need to cut, IMNSO; although I've heard it's addictive.
How long has it been since you've last cut, if you don't mind my asking?
If people don't see you falling apart, at the end of your rope, they think you are fine. They have no clue what's going on inside.Tend to your cuts as a mother would her child's wounds. Pamper yourself, you need it (in my opinion). I used to think of the ointment, etc., as not only a dressing for the cuts, but perhaps a way to start the healing on the inside...I know it sounds dumb. Salve for the soul as well. I'd remind myself that in taking care of them, I was taking care of myself and that helped because I still cared about me-even if I thought no one else did.
If we could just 'snap out of it' and get one with life, there would be no need for medications, psychiatrists, counselor's, etc.. It just isn't that easy, although we all wish it were.
I don't know if you still live with your parents, but is there a way you could separate yourself from them, even temporarily?
FWIW-we'll help you get through it as much as we can and will be there if you need to talk, scream, vent, or cry.
If you feel the need to talk, cut or whatever, feel free to let us know. Some of us can be in chat in a matter of minutes at times. I'm glad your suicide attempt didn't work-I like having you around :-)
I'll be in chat for a bit if you want to join, don't feel like you have to show up though, just because I'm there.
Hope you feel better soon-
Kiddo
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