Posted by alley on March 18, 2002, at 9:12:21
okay...well i guess i should start by saying im home tutored through the school...i went to public school all my life up until this past feburary...im a senior in high school whose co-editor for our art literary magazine and one of the head painteress' in paint crew for our school play...well the other day the advisor(hes the advisor for both things) asked if i could do layout during the day in school in his
classroom...i thought itd be no problem since this whole time id been going to paint crew which is being held after school hours(i dont get to go every day because of the conflict of school but i did go when possible, the administrators just didnt know) and chameleon(the art/lit. magazine) was held during lunch on thursdays..))since my tutoring isnt until later on in the day...well the only thing was this time he told me i had to go get a visitors
pass..which i didnt see why i should if i was still considered a student..im getting tutored through the school, getting a diploma in a couple months, going to prom...but i went on my way to see what i could do even though i didnt want to take the chance of running into a fellow classmate with what i had heard was going around about me...the secretery asked under what circumstanced and i explained...she said shouldnt be a problem...see the assist.
principle...(we have 2 of assist. principles and one principle..dont know why) went to see him and wow....did he degrade me...
the minuet i asked for a visitors pass he asked what makes you think a student or someone other then an adult can get a visitors pass here at our school? i said well considering i am a student here, im just getting homeschooled THROUGH your school, why cant i just have a visitors pass to come in, i dont want to wander the halls i just want to help a teacher out and stay there. and then he asked why i was getting homeschooled, i told him under medical
reasoning and he sighed and said that it was foolish with only three months left..and i told him he doesnt know what i go through only i do..then i asked if it was okay about the chameleon and paint crew thing and he said most certainly not and under no circumstances am i to use the school facilities...if im ready to do that, than im ready to come back...at that point i was in tears and i told him that i didnt understand how i could be considered a
student and get my diploma from their school, go to graduation, and prom, and he said its not meant to understand, if your ready to do that kind of stuff you can come back to our school. thing is he doesnt understand that those two things keep me going...
ive put my whole three years going into my fourth year into this magazine..my second year being co-editor...same for paint crew...i cant just give that up...in the state im in he really pushed it and wow...so my dad called up...and my p-doc is faxing over a medical letter and some other stuff cause hes fuming too cause he said its important for me to have something like these to build up my self esteem and hes damn right...theyre discriminating
me...they took it to the superintendin today and they said they couldnt have me there cause theyre afraid of my anxiety and my conditions that i may lash out like i used to in class and hurt someone...i never hurt anyone...i may have freaked out but i left the room and went to the school psychologist...and i just wanted to know if theyre allowed to do what theyre doing to me...
to say that im giong to hurt someone? im going right up for 45 mins at lunch to one room to see a group of people...people that dont annoy me...i wont be seeing anyone else...and then ill be there after school hours for just another week...with the same group of people...and the funny ironic part is..one of my tutors occasionly tutors me at the school when the librarys closed...i cant use school facilites?? whats that about then?
if anyone knows anything about this type of thing please contact me....its breaking my heart what theyre doing to me...and im afraid theyre going to win this battle like they always do...any feedback would help me to just fight back with words of wisdom...i really appreciate it..and im sorry its soooo long...but im sure you all know what its like when you have nothing..and then you have that one something...its that one something you actually look
forward to...but that one cockydoody head takes it away just because theyre using their power...and then what do you have? you have their voice echoing in the back of your head telling you over and over again...that they know you...and the truth of the matter is...you know its all downhill from there...and its a steep scary bump ride....
Just when you think things can't get any worse, they do. I've learned that life is like hour glass sand. Sooner or later, everything hits rock bottom..-Alley
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