Posted by spiroll on March 17, 2002, at 16:56:37
In reply to refills, dieting, posted by trouble on March 17, 2002, at 16:24:12
Hi Trouble...thanks for the post! I have absolutely no history of suicide attempts, actually, i just have occasional panic attacks and this pdoc says I have depression, too, but I'm not so sure I'm depressed about much other than that I'm overweight. I was always so thin until I took antidepressants for the panic attacks, but I rarely have them anymore, thus the occasional xanax. Now I have slid to general anxiety disorder which means I'm just a heap of nervous energy, jumpy, scared shltless every second of the day, more like I feel on the verge of a panic attack at all times. I have gained over a hundred pounds since I started taking antidepressants...and I'd be so happy to be 150 pounds. I know that's a healthy weight - i had my children and even after that only weighed 130 and was strong and healthy, but two months after I started imipramine for panic attacks I gained ... forty pounds I think. It was ALOT.
I have tried the products with the Ephedra in several forms but always am so afraid of the racing heart thing - but I am going to mention it to my doctor and ask her if it's okay to continue taking it. I mean, I just had a brain MRI for a different medical problem (Meniere's Disease=dizziness) and I've had scads of heart tests done and I'm physically very healthy - but still so afraid that the ephedra is going to kill me.
My problem is that I don't eat enough I think. I don't know. That sounds stupid. I religiously track my food intake at a website called fitday.com and I never seem to even hit 1800 calories. Yesterday I thought I pigged out and only got to 1100 calories. I rarely eat before seven pm and yet my weight just keeps SOARING, but not as bad now that I stopped taking antidepressants. My all time high was 250 but I've gone down to 230 now. I'm killing myself trying to lose weight - I don't mean that literally, just I'm working so hard and nothing is working and I KNOW it's because of still having the damn antidepressants in my system.
Yes, the doctor wants to see me every three weeks - he says he feels that if I go longer I won't be able to handle things. I have really good insurance, maybe that's why he likes to see me. I don't know - I admit that I'm not the smartest person but it doesn't seem right. I say that because I ... well, i am just an average person, I'm a mom, work at home, I don't have mood swings, I don't have any extremes - I'm just what I consider "normal" other than the damn panic attacks and anxiety. How would I not be able to "handle things?" in my life if I wasn't seeing him? I'm not a porcelain doll, I'm not that fragile.
I sometimes feel like he is trying to talk me into feeling more like shlt.
So you think I should write a letter to him - because i was just thinking of never going back, just kind of letting him disappear into my past. My hope was that my family doctor could cover my meds, but whoever said that about them being reluctant to do that for psych meds, I guess that's a problem I'll have to address. With a new pdoc I guess. Again, I don't know.
Thanks for writing, you've given me alot to think on.
Lisa
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