Posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 16, 2002, at 8:34:19
In reply to Re: I changed my mind-hope you got a receipt :) , posted by Willow on March 15, 2002, at 19:58:01
Thin ice....I'm guessing probably wrong...
Dream realms of perfection.
To feed the emptiness....are any showing signs of coming true Willow?
Are we delusional or is it the drug : )I would be cautious about the lamictal , though It does give one energy and instead of feeling warm it's HOT--different for everyone..I'm quitting for a while....or forever it's given me a fat head...literally
FRUSTRATION........
I get opportunities but it isn't what I want.
To engage in sex would make the emptiness worse for me and knowing my constant crap luck I'd probably get some desease.Being alone..........
Living alone being alone I would strongly recommend to all just to ...(cliche`)...find who you are and what you want..but your present situation and for others that's impossible...I'm adviceless--if that's a word.
I still have to exist alone till I feel I need some kind of social contact or more , I don't see that happening...
The sun is shining and I feel I should be somewhere else The city sometimes provides a belonging but there's an ambience of misery , contamination...I detest going out except when almost everyones sleeping and out of my way....well that's my depressive drivel.I missed my birthday this year....shows how much I care.
Things change , the usuall for me is , if I'm looking , yearning it never happens ...and it ain't never what you'd hoped so get drunk or hypo , get naked and howl n swear at the stars...
dreamer
poster:CtrlAlt n Del
thread:19906
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