Posted by Mair on January 23, 2002, at 20:35:35
In reply to Re: ahhhhhhhhhhh, posted by Dinah on January 23, 2002, at 18:01:28
> Sar - I prefer to think that those who leave us are off doing fun things, in the pink of mental health, giving not even a carefree thought to PSB. I'm sorry that's not the case with you (or apparently with Kristi for that matter).
I agree with Dinah and I, too, find it mystifying that a shrink (at a state hospital for god's sake) would disparage meds. Periodically I've discovered that I can feel better on fewer meds. Either I've cut back at a time when I'm just under less stress, or, I sometimes think that maybe this is just evidence that I'm not really depressed and that my depressive feelings are an artificial construct. However, it's been a long time since I've dared to cut out all meds, and while therapy has been very helpful at times, i can't imagine it sufficing in and of itself.
I also think that sometimes I spend so much time analyzing my life that I don't so much "live" my life as observe it. It would be nice to think that I could jettison meds and therapy and somehow forget that I have or ever had depression - I really think that I should be able to do this - sort of "will" my depression away, like it doesn't exist.
However, the meds and therapy are part of my safety net, and the fear of being so depressed that I can't really be treated is too great for me to give up on the course of treatment I've chosen.
Maybe it's also that I'm risk averse and hate roller coasters.
Please stay in touch.
Mair
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