Posted by dreamer on January 3, 2002, at 21:06:57
In reply to Re: just boring moaning with loads of misspelling » dreamer, posted by IsoM on January 3, 2002, at 15:03:39
> ...oh, dreamer!!! How can you even dream going through this? I hurt so much for you!!!
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> I went through Paxil withdrawal. I tapered off slowly over three months & was sick the whole time & for a couple of months afterwards. I hardly got out of bed the whole summer, most of my plants on the patio died, my garden even died or weeds took over. My poor kitties didn't know what was wrong with me. I still had discontinuation/withdrawal symptoms a year later & went back on a very reduced dose of the hated Paxil to just try to feel normal.Thanks for sharing we're never alone but it can feel that way sometimes. I've just restarted the lamictal had to cut 100mg into four pieces I must of looked like a junky.I certainly feel like one.
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> It's so untrue when people say you can never remember your past pain in detail - I can still mentally feel it when I think of it! I feel it when I read your post.The irritation is so bad I'm scared of losing it. Upstairs the tenants are so noisey I have to restrain myself from doing my psycho nut confrontation apparently a look is all it takes to freak someone. My flatemate's at a loss when I'm crying so I take a benzo and sleep.
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> NOthing made me feel good but I took lots of vitamin C & water during this time. I know whatever was happening to me was hard on my body as I'd alternate between constipation & diarrhea, couldn't sleep and when I did, I'd wake bolt upright with a full-blown panic attack. When my TSH levels were checked (a friend was so worried about me she took me to her doctor), they were all wonky too. This was along with the regular other withdrawal symptoms.Yes warm water does help also pop vit c and eat rather healthy .Daren't go docs or outside incase I'm sectioned , fear of anger surge the irritations are the first sign every bit of noIse or someones cough or tv everything becomes a itch to scratch verbally >
> I wanted to be dead then but knew I couldn't do it. My sons kept trying to comfort me saying it would eventually pass. I wanted someone to haul me off to the hospital & just sedate me for the whole time till I was better. I never, EVER want to go through that again.
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> Having viral pneumonia & breaking up with my husband at the same time was easier than the withdrawal - not much though. Stick with it, sweetie. I wish I was there to hold your hand & brush your hair gently - anything to ease your misery.A stranger who was visiting to look at the flat which is for sale gently ran his hand down my back whilst I was on the computer .Maybe he just was a randy pervert -an attractive one too! but boy did it feel good to be touched and to touch I may add , but I have my crazy cat for now.
I'll keep moaning but internal weather can change if only briefly till the drugs kick in so much lost time just waiting ......lovables..dreamer
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