Posted by fallensparrow on January 3, 2002, at 1:44:29
The start of this new year has come with many changes in my life. Some good, some bad ... I find myself regressing back to a lot of the old habits, falling into the same traps and giving in to the same triggers ... and its making me so mad at myself. This time though, I see what Im doing. I see it happening, where every other time Ive been blind. It gives me hope, and faith in myself to know that this time I know myself well enough, and Ive come far enough that I can see whats coming before it hits me like a runaway train. And the good ... well, Ive been able to reconnect with an old best friend ... she was there when I went into the hospital for my annorexia ... and she wasn't able to handle seeing me go through what I did, and she and I lost base with each other ... and we've been able to talk about so much. I don't talk, I have a really really REALLY hard time talking about my life and the things that bother me, so to be able to talk about my annorexia and my depression and what her leaving did to me ... was a HUGE step ... another dose of hope ... so ... here is to a NEW YEAR, FAITH in FRIENDS, and the STRENGTH of our SPIRITS ...
Sparrow
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thread:16192
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