Posted by wendy b. on December 13, 2001, at 9:24:47
In reply to Re: Come in, Cam W., Come in... » wendy b., posted by Cam W. on December 13, 2001, at 3:15:53
Dear Cam,
Thanks for the reply, I was a little worried, I guess. You do so much for everyone here, and we all care a lot about you...
I'm also interested in how we as depressed people get along in the world of jobs. And the ways in which they >suck< , and it's not all just 'in our heads'... Of course, yours is so physically draining, it's a wonder you lasted this long. Four 12-hr shifts and one 7-hr shift in 5 days sounds like a prescription for disaster, and don't mind the pun (?). Really, you're a man, not a machine. It must have scared you when you found out you were making mistakes. Why did this pharmacy schedule people like this, because they couldn't hire any more qualified people?
I continue to examine whether the horror-filled ending of the last "real" job I had was a function of my illness, and/or also of the incredible incompetency that my department and my boss displayed. I had been on disability for two months, and they way they treated me when I got back, like it was some kind of crime to take the leave, was really awful. It sort of played on my already weakened system, and I fell apart with anxiety and even more depression. I guess even if I hadn't been depressed, the boss still would have been incompetent to manage a department and the 'human resources' issues there. She played people off each other with the skill of a seasoned mafioso. I don't even know what the image is to use -- at one point I told the HR woman above her that my boss felt to me like a vampire sucking my blood... Of course, she just thought this was 'crazy-talk' on the part of a 'crazy' person.
> Anyway, I am not to worried about decreasing my stress and getting away from that "pill factory". I want to get back to treating patients, again. Perhaps I'll set up consulting on the internet....hmmm...That would be FANTASTIC. You are so good at it already, look at the response you get on PB! People direct messages directly to you more than to anyone else. You should use it to your advantage somehow... I think this is an idea with a lot of potential.
Anyway, glad to hear from you, and hold on, it's only a few more days...
best,
Wendy
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