Posted by sar on December 11, 2001, at 12:41:26
In reply to Re: Update, posted by Cass on December 10, 2001, at 14:44:43
Cass,
i'm glad that the spell has weakened. it can hurt so much and then you eat a blade of grass or strae at the sky or have a good laugh or good whatever, and things change.
i love this board. it's helped me through some difficult times. i think all the regulars know that i am recurrently suicidal, but i take great, great joy in doing things that i love the most--smoking a joint while riding through valleys and mountains in the wine country, kissing hello and good-bye, meeting people--especially girls--that i can have Real conversations with--helping children with reading...all a mixed bag, i don't know what your things are, but i hope you can extract some pleasures.
for myself, i accept that i will never be a "happy person." i don't even know if such a thing exists...but i know where and how my extraordinary pleasures exist, and the success of finding them and experiencing them is phenomenal.
i laugh and cry alot.
do you think that life is a crazy patchwork like that? what is your life like? ~what type of job do you have, what is your age, etc?
poster:sar
thread:14911
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20011207/msgs/15343.html