Posted by dreamer on December 8, 2001, at 23:20:42
In reply to Re: Sub. Epilepsy Questionnaire - Follow-up? » dreamer, posted by IsoM on December 8, 2001, at 22:39:19
> The lights & coloured patterns can be very interesting. As they're much more noticable in the dark, at night when I have trouble falling asleep, I just watch the colours & patterns till I fall asleep. Same with the voices - I've learned to basically ignore the mental voices (they're not like sound but like all the sounds I've heard recently played back as bits of thoughts & sometimes I can even recognise different voices) but at night when I'm tired, they're more noticable so I'll listem to the snatches of conversations till I fall asleep.
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> Neither the 'sounds' or lights & patterns disturb me. I've realised long ago that they were just random neural firings in my brain but the moving spots & blurs can make it difficult to read in the evenings. I've had my eyes checked by an opthamologist & there's no organic eye disorders. Also the tactile feelings (I'm super-sensitive to touch) are irritating. I hate the feel of clothes & many fabrics are definitely out. All tags need to be removed from my clothes. Always being unpleasantly aware of clothes touching your skin is bothersome, hardly life-threatening but I dislike it.
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> In the questionnaire it asks if "I bump into or drop things. I'm accident-prone or absent-minded. I lose track of my place in tasks." I'm covered in bruises to prove how much of a klutz I am. I can even run over my own feet with a grocery cart. I frequently bang into the doorway, not quite making it through, trip over things, make an absolute mess when I cook, etc; I dislike my clumsiness. I suppose it's almost comical to watch me. Even in typing this up, I'm continously going back & editing, not because I spell incorrectly, but from my fingers hitting the wrong keys or in the wrong order - AND I've used a computer for years & can type 'well'.
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> Anyway, it's those sort of things that bother me & I'd love to see go. I do enjoy the perspective I have on life. I love the intensity of life that I feel & would rather have all the nuisances if it meant I'd have to lose my intensity too.
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> I use to have migraines frequently - either visual auras, or smells & intense feelings of irritation, but now they've faded & I'll occasionally get a visual aura but rarely will a full-blown headache with nausea develop.Why the question about migraines?--
I was just trying to see a connection between epilepsy , migraines and bipolar because depakote is used to treat these.....all live in same part of brain I have no idea???????? too complicated.I also get all of above symptoms except the clumsiness but pens and brushes just seem to jump out of my hand , literally it's annoying!
I also cut out clothes tags.
Another thing I noticed in the questionaire is the tongue itch (before seizure i guess) I get this before my mood switches usually before extreme irritation.....this is the time I usually take a sedative to normalise myself. To discuss this with doc , well no point he'll just smile.
There are so many other weird things that happen
too , I am actually too complex for a proper diagnosis......hey that makes me crazy~special/:^)dreamer
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