Posted by Chloe on December 8, 2001, at 10:38:49
In reply to Re: Desperate-what's left? » Chloe, posted by paxvox on December 7, 2001, at 20:18:05
PAX,
Thanks for "accentuating the positive"! I tend to think in black or white. There is no grey area. Either, I have to die or all is just so wonderful. Though, I haven't had much wonderful lately! You post truly cheered me, and gave me hope that I can take on another day.
I am off to my four hour/week job! It's a challenge. But, I guess it's like going for my walks. I always feel better after I get out there and get it over with.
It's just so hard not to get trapped in these terrifying states where I feel like there is no hope for me, no medications, and exhausted therapists. Like I felt like I did last night, and the day before... But there is hope. If I could only remember that in those times of unrelenting dispair!
Your post was so appreciated and timely.
C
> My, Chloe, it DOES sound like you are having quite the time! I am not personally familiar with most of your DX, however, I have had my share of imbalances that have responded better to meds at times. However, if I can make this observation: Yes, you are having problems BUT...you are able to communicate them well, you are able to be lucide and logical, and express realistic concerns. These are not the traits of one going around the drain. So, I would try to focus on the positive things in your life. You ARE able to work, many cannot;you ARE able to talk to someone, even if it's just "us" and best of all, you are NOT alone! There is always an answer to be found here at the PSB or PB. I have found many concerned and caring folk that I have been able to share my worries and concerns with. True, it lacks that personal "hands on" touch of a close buddy, but it IS an option. Maybe you need to find a different Pdoc, maybe you need a med "holiday". Maybe you need an entire change of environment. There is an answer for you. Maybe not today. But keep up your hope, finish the race, fight the good fight. You can do it.. Look for little victories that you can build upon. Let us know how you are doing.
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