Posted by ChrisK on December 8, 2001, at 6:09:12
In reply to Re: What keeps you here???? » tina, posted by IsoM on December 6, 2001, at 0:23:04
I do believe that I am here because God doesn't want me right now and a lot of people have said many prayers to keep me here. I have had two very serious OD's that landed me in ICU each time with a lot of tubes and pain wrecking my body. Flat out I wasn't successful one time and I was rescued another time.
These times caused my family great pain. I had convinced myself that they would all be better off without me. I was only a burden and without me they could move on with their lives. Of course this thinking turned out to be not true but that didn't stop the thoughts anyway.
Now I stay alive because I am on the right meds. I have been able to clear up my thinking and remove a good part of my depression from my life. IT's been a long time coming but I'm not considering suicide as option #1 anymore. I've been able to move on and I'm sure that you and others here will be able to do the same.
It's not an easy task or an interesting road to travel but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I made it through the hard way. You still have the opportunity to make it through without the extra pain. Keep talking to your doctor and work hard at finding the meds that are right for you. Right now I believe that the meds available can really help 95% of us. It's just a matter of time and experimentation.
I have seen a lot of names come and go on this board and I know that many who have left have done so because they feel better.
Best wishes for you and all of the healthy things that are soon to come your way,
Chris
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