Posted by akc on December 5, 2001, at 22:42:19
In reply to Cutting Anything Else Feel Good?, posted by IsoM on December 5, 2001, at 18:55:27
I think it is very different for every person who cuts. I don't like to feel any pain whatsoever. For me I like the challenge on seeing how deeply I can cut without causing any pain. The act of doing so, the concentration, I go almost into a dissociative state. Out of this, it helps stop the brain storm I am in. Usually, I become quite calm (too calm, sometimes -- it has worried an er doc or two). The blood is almost a nuisance to me. Cutting on something else would not do -- because of the need to prevent feeling the pain. That is part of the ritual for me.
I don't know if this makes sense at all -- it is quite different than why others do it.
I have wanted in the past to feel pain -- and have tried punching things, etc. But at heart I am a wimp, and cannot cause myself too much pain.
akc
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