Posted by paula on December 3, 2001, at 22:43:31
In reply to Re: double life?, posted by Kristi on December 3, 2001, at 22:27:10
You make an interesting point. I've gotten myself into what could be a very fruitful use of my non-sociability: academia. Nothing keeps a person isolated like research in the humanities! I've been thinking about getting SOME kind of normal, regularly scheduled job out in the world just to keep my juices flowing. I don't want to be forced into sociability, but I think it'll help me. I am so completely impressed that you're able to do the cocktail waitress thing. That's got to be one of the most intensely "sociable" jobs in the world. More power to you!! --p
> I know what everyone is saying...... but I sort of try to look at it from another perspective. I work serving cocktails at a casino. What I bring home depends on my "sociality". I fake it very well. I come home and crawl under the covers and cry afterwards..... I don't feel like getting up and going to work in the mornings..... but then I ask myself if I'd rather sit here with these feelings or "fake it".... I don't know, I guess that works well for me. Even if it's a lie... I'm normal(whatever that is) for 8 hours a day.
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