Posted by Cass on November 27, 2001, at 21:27:41
In reply to Re: Suicide » Cass, posted by shelliR on November 27, 2001, at 16:50:45
I'm still on a roller coaster ride. Today I was driving, and I heard a beautiful song from "Cirque du Soleil," and I felt uplifted and started to think of all the wonderful, caring people I know, including all of you. I felt euphoric. Then I got home and spoke to my pdoc who finally returned my call. I couldn't express how hurt I felt that he hadn't returned my urgent phone call, and I couldn't help but feel that the money issue had contributed to his neglect. You can't have well-being without having a lot of money. Then I felt like, why on earth didn't I take all those pills? I go up and down. We talked about my going back on an antidepressant. I heard that Prozac recently became available in generic form, and I suggested that I might be able to afford that. I spoke too soon though. I called the pharmacy to check the price and it hasn't gone down that much. I need to be on something very badly. I'm not very stable, but don't worry too much about me. I think I'm out of the woods. I hope I am. Thanks.
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