Posted by kid_A on October 25, 2001, at 16:59:04
In reply to Re: 2nd bad vilbel- 2nd scepe- 2nd scout- 2nd peng , posted by dreamer on October 25, 2001, at 15:45:36
my problem is that i rely on other people for my own strength... strength that should ultimately come from me... i let it slip that i 'need' people, as soon as casuals feel that they are 'neeeded' they feel crowded... they don't know how to react... nobody casual wants to feel necisary to someone elses happiness... but truth be told, i enjoy all my friends, they contribute to my happiness... its just some i enjoy more than others...the fact is, in life you have to play the game with the cards held close to your chest, and make no moves... i miss the way she could shriek in delight at a song she loved, or the positive criticism she gave my writing... when you find special things about someone, you tend to put them on a throne, especially if you were at once (once, still, perhaps), in love w/ them...
finding this board has been a great outlet for me, and there is so little that you need to 'explain'... so many people here know how it feels, and im so gratefull there are people who can understand....
thanks everyone for the responses... pdoc upped my xanax dosage today after mental breakdown... hooray... nothing like xanax to round of the edges of a saber pawed porcupine...
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...to be in your eyes...
to be in your eyes...
to be in your eyes...
poster:kid_A
thread:12968
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