Posted by kid_A on October 12, 2001, at 9:03:39
thats my problem... connection... obsession... the need for connection... when i write, whenever i speak of ghosts im always refering to people, people who are not living their lives, but just killing time... does that make sense? sometimes i feel like im killing time, and all these things that are going on around me are just like being in a movie, where none of the characters are real... sometimes (in some moments) i feel like im watching myself in the movie, and for a brief moment i have to ask myself, 'am i really here, right now, in this moment'?....and im taken by these connections to people, these people in my lives that can be transitory or semi permanant... and i fall for people that i should know better than to fall for, but i do it anyways, and i betray people i should not betray because i get up on easy love... easy questions... easy answers...
what are we doing? walking wounded? all in a movie starring ourselves, playing ourselves, truly, wringing our hands and opressed by our jobs and in the end that beautiful moment when you walk down the asile to get your oscar, they pin wings to your back and give you a harp...
anyone understand?
poster:kid_A
thread:12430
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