Posted by susan C on October 7, 2001, at 18:12:30
In reply to Binge drinking, tranqs and realisations, posted by dreamer on October 7, 2001, at 10:12:28
> My drunken stupor into oblivion , blackouts finding myself physically ill but it was a mental enema.
> My final binge.
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> I am now longing for social isolation in a leafy countrified studio where i can explore my internal mindscape creatively and detach from the weirdness of life/socially i have tried to belong to.
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> Maybe I'm mad but the more i strive for the norm the more i get depressive.
> Living in my head with the help of a med i will evolve and create beauty.
> Only content with solitude sometimes im struggling through thorny weeds to find the blue lagoon but i am myself.
> Here ends the wordstreams of conscousness.
> It's one messy hurdle in finding a home !
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> Trust noone.
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> Maybe I'll keep posting maybe I won't -for selfish reasons? a cyber diary and hope I've been entertaining and caused smiley smiles and for those who didn't get the humour.......EAT MORE GREENS.
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> A dramatic dreamer.(And it was Saturday)
If you did not post nor give your rambling in the stream of consciousness responses, how would I know that you were there? A fig newton of my imagination, a british twin, however your decision, I send you best wishes and ahoy there matey, cast off or welcome aboard...
Is having some one depend on you a burden or an inspiration or a conflict?
Is the idea of having a cyber friend who may be come a real friend, or the other way 'round, too much for those of us (me) who hide in our monitor closets and yet struggle to take a step into the real sunshine, not just the electronic glow...
Am I being obtuse enough, thinking through dreams, and walking unsteadily through my days, very welcome to have another, though enibriated, traveler.
mouse on board
susan c
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