Posted by tina on October 6, 2001, at 23:18:02
In reply to Re: Now, for Something Completely - Willow, posted by Greg on October 6, 2001, at 13:12:40
> > GREG
> > "Tell me that there are 400 billion stars in the sky and I'll believe you.
> > Tell me that a bench has wet paint and I have to touch it."
> >
> > I have a question for you. Have you ever been tempted to reach for the stars? In a literal sense, wanting to know more about them. Wouldn't that be the same as touching the wet paint?
> >
> > Little Willow
>
> Hi Willow,
>
> I guess what I was reaching for was how my belief system works.
>
> I find it so much easier to believe in the intangibles around me. Those things I can't explain. I fully believe that I've been able to maintain almost 14 years of sobriety because I made the choice to put my life into the hands of a higher power, who I believe is god. I can't see him, or touch him, and I've certainly never talked to him, but I believe he's there. Just like I believe in those 400 billion stars that I'll never see. The things I can't explain have never let me down or caused me pain. They feel safe to me.
>
> On the other hand, the tangibles in my life, especially my parents and my grandfather, have been tremendous sources of pain. Many of the things I could see, touch and feel have let me down in my life, destroyed my trust. I have trouble taking the good things in life at face value, I guess I don't feel deserving of being treated well. I rec'd a letter from AOL yesterday offering me a free pocket organizer for just filling out a questionaire and mailing it back to them. Them even sent a stamped envelope. I read the letter 6 times looking for the catch... I had to touch the paint.
>
> I don't know if this makes any sense, but at 46, I'm still trying to grow up.
>
> GregMakes perfect sense to me.
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