Posted by sar on September 23, 2001, at 22:44:49
In reply to Re: Speaking Your Mind - Sar and everyone, posted by Krazy Kat on September 23, 2001, at 11:45:23
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> --- I feel much more like I was in college right now. Keep waiting for it to dissipate, which is so sad, isn't it. That lurking fear of depression...what do you mean? i always think that when it subsides i'll be okay, yes yes i'll be okay one day even though depression is indelibly etched into my heart, i fear the black holes, i fear the dysphoria...do you consider yourself depressed right now?
> --- I'm sorry about this, but as one of my friend's pointed out, it's best to let some people in your life go. I'm glad you're no longer friends - can you imagine how dysfunctional that would be?
it had been dysfunctional for a long time, i just didn't realize it until sanity struck me one day in march when i started prozac. it makes me sad that i endured what i did; it makes me sad that i miss him; it makes me sad that we will probably never speak again.
but it's okay...
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> --- Had a good Dr.'s appt. yesterday. Am on 1,000 mg of Dep. Got in BIG trouble because haven't had my labs done yet. Am going off Topamax b/c it could be adding to sedation.what is the topomax for? blood labs, you mean?
> Neurontin on its own was not enough for me, but I know it has been for some folks on the board so I would give it a try. Hopefully the Prozac will counteract the sedation. Was starting to have "manic" or "hypomanic" or "whatever" episodes within weeks of each other and then a major depressive episode about a month ago. I went to see my pdoc, said "I want to go into the hospital until something can be found that will make me feel better for a longer time than the past meds, and he gave me Depakote. Helped almost immediately. I don't know if it will continue... I hope so, of course. Had to get "hysterical" to get helped, it seems. :)how would you describe a hypomanic phase, or being "hysterical"? neurontin has sedated me some, but mostly i feel real real chill, and it's good...
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> - Kelly (real name - that's when the meds are working and keeping everyone in line. ;) )
ah!...i'll post my real name when i feel myself most again and when the anonymity issue doesn't scare me as much! my initials are S.A.R...
> -- How's your guy?yeeee, you remembered you crazy broad!, it's turning out really well, he's very affectionate and giving. neurontin + boyfriend have augmented my cocktail quite nicely. :)
love,
sar
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