Posted by Greg A. on September 10, 2001, at 11:37:12
In reply to Re: Bikes and booze., posted by stjames on September 9, 2001, at 14:07:47
Bikes and No Booze
Don’t fret – I did not take offense at Jame’s statement of ‘That’s what all alcoholics say.’ Okay I did at first cause the truth hurts at times, even small doses of it. I have long known that I do not drink socially. At times I have felt that it helped me to relieve anxiety with that welcome numbness, or earlier to make me less shy in social situations. The past five years, or perhaps it’s more, I have wanted to drink on my own. I don’t want to be around other people. I have questioned, almost daily, whether I had a problem. But I have avoided the answer. It just cannot be good for a depressed person to drink on a daily basis, even in small quantities. If I had a glass of wine at dinner at that was it, I would say that’s okay. But I never do. I may postpone drinking until later in the evening, but I always shoot for numbness and a glass of wine does not do it. The only thing I have done over the years is to limit myself to a quantity that won’t totally impair me for the next day. But it does affect me.
So how did I do on the weekend? Three whole days of NO alcohol. It’s a start. I refuse to say whether I feel better or not right now. I’m just going to get through tonight alcohol free and see how tomorrow is. Spoken like a true alcoholic.
By the way James; I shall carry your one liner with me for a very long time. Every time I start to justify what I do with alcohol, up will pop up a neon sign. THAT’S WHAT EVERY ALCOHOLIC SAYS. Oh – and James – I am six foot two and 245 pounds and built like a linebacker. That’s just my way of saying thanks.Greg
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