Posted by kazoo on September 9, 2001, at 21:55:03
In reply to Help feeling down, posted by Lexie on September 9, 2001, at 9:12:33
> It has been a long time since I have posted. I am not sure if any of you still remember me. I am having a very rough weekend. I have Bipolar 2, my most recent challange has been anorexia, my weight has gotten to 113 at 5'9". I told my therapist I just want to dicentigrate. This weekend, I had a visitor that could only stay 2 days when they went back to another state, the panic attacks started, I feel all alone. I pace the floor. (I lost custody of my son last year) I realize more than ever what it feels like to be alone. I want to die now more than ever. I know I will make it I will alway's do. I remember what my therapist said when I said, my son didn't want anything from me and he said yes he does, he wants his mom to see him graduate college and get married and have kids, he wants a lot from you. He is only 5, they say when my weight reaches double digits it's almost irreversable and anorexia has a 50/50 mortality rate. I love my son so much but I am so tired. Lexie
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Of course I remember you ... !My dear, you need immediate medical attention. I *strongly* suggest you do this as soon as you can. I'm surprised your doctor hasn't put you in a hospital already. What are they waiting for?
You are malnourished, probably dehydrated as well, all of which is going to cause the organs in your body to shut down. (This is not a pretty sight either!) You will reach a point of no return (as you were warned), and when you reach that point, when there's no turning back, you're going to look back in anger at this period of time when you could have done something to help yourself.(And there's nothing worse than anger generated from regret!)
Get some help now.
Right now.
Call your doctor ASAP.Do it.
Do it for your son.
Do it for yourself.If you have a problem with hospitalization, then contact a friend, a family member, somebody at Social Services ... anybody ... and tell them what's happening to you.
Let somebody know!Keep posting ... stay in touch.
(a worried) Kazoo
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