Posted by paxvox on August 30, 2001, at 12:07:42
In reply to On seriousness, posted by akc on August 30, 2001, at 9:51:56
AKC,
Yes, the terminal illness and death of your mother is very unpleasant to say the least, especially when you have to watch her last days and experience her suffering. I had to watch my mom die (literally) from cancer,and that is what perhaps made me seek treatment for depression 10 years ago. I have exerienced the feelings of selfishnes for MY LOSS of my mom, and the guilt of feeling that way. I had to watch my dad get mad at my mom because she was dying and leaving him. I had to watch as the mother I knew "changed" to a personality that was NOT my mom. God only knows the horror and pain. It gets to be where you actually see death as a release from the pain and suffering (I guess that is why suicide is so high on the cause of death stats...though I believe almost all of those are ill-advised reactions to hopelessness). I guess the bottom line is your support system. If you have a religious faith, that can be a great source of strength in times like these (it can also shake those same beliefs!!!). Let me know if you want me to elaborate.
PAX
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