Posted by sar on August 19, 2001, at 10:33:41
In reply to Re: depression and crushes, posted by mila on August 19, 2001, at 4:14:56
> > is it worth it?
>
> go for it, sar. you'll never know unless you try.
you are right. fear holds too many of us back.
> people do not really reject us, they just set us free for the new people to enjoy. that's it. if it happens, just say, 'oops, sorry, I thought you were someone else!"
what an optimistic way of viewing it! i'd thought he was a philanderer and sleep-around, but as it turns out, he's actually much purer than that. i think that's why i'm doublly confused. also, we won't be living in the same city until january...never done the long-distance thing before, and now that we've been v.v. intimate all night, my heart feels attached. i think it works differently for men.> set aside your medical condition for a while, it is not like you are talking about marriage or anything yet. labels can put people off or at least offer them an easy/difficult (it depends) route for excuses, but the reality of a living person won't.
yes yes, i agree. it is nothing serious yet, i've just not felt this way about a person for a long time. for the past year it was easier for me to go out with guys who liked and respected me, then fuck them over as some sort of preventitive method of being fucked over myself. this guy tho--i just really like him. he could already hurt me, and that frightens me.> do not be afraid of exerting energy on love. in some sense, depression is a lot of energy that haven't found its outlet, that is why little pills work magic on us. they are not particularly loaded with energy, but they make whatever energy is already there available to us. spend it all!!! at the very least you'll be remembered as the girl who knew how to love fully...
true, true! depression is such an energy-sucker. i do have some little magic pills now and am feeling better. prior to that, i grew my leg hair out and growled at any man who flirted with me. am much less bitter now, but part of my diagnosis (as "borderline") is extreme sensitivity and romantic relationships just tear me up...perhaps i should just be a nun. it would cut the drinking out, i wouldn't have to shave, and i wouldn't have to worry about this shite.good luck
> milathanks mila. i'll keep you updated if you are interested. & how are you?
sar
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