Posted by sar on August 3, 2001, at 1:07:28
In reply to Re: diagnosis debacle » sar, posted by Wendy B. on August 1, 2001, at 5:21:54
dear wendy,
thank you. your brief summation of borderline helped put things in perspective--i do exhibit the impulsive behavior, the "i hate you, don't leave me" crap, but i'm very easy to get along with, v. ammenable and accepting. rarely overtly angry.
i've been hesitant to take on the BP II diagnosis because i feel like--may i give you a metaphor? say someone is depresst for a month but still functioning--they've got the "blues," and then somehow the blues go away but that's what they think depression feels like. blues=5 pounds, depression=1000 pounds. i'm hesitant to call myself BPII because i don't want to discount the extremity of it.
i've never been manic, but 2 of my docs think they've seen me in "mixed states." most of that time though, i was drunk.
i'm shyly sociable on the whole, not-at-all a bitch (is that what makes a borderline?) so i don't know what to think.
i've never experienced mania, though...and how would you describe hypomania? i *wish* i could have some of that mania, but i think maybe i'm just a drunken unipolar woith weird side-effects (explained in next message).
thanks Wendy!
love,
sar
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