Posted by Glenn Fagelson on July 31, 2001, at 0:09:59
In reply to Re: Possible trouble with a friend., posted by Kingfish on July 30, 2001, at 19:28:51
> Glenn:
>
> This phrase caught my eye:
>
> "had to spend a whole hour with me just to get
> me out of denial"
>
> because it was something I struggled with for a decade +. I went from Dr. to Dr. trying to find a physical cause for my depression and mania, and there just was none. I could not believe it could be mental, and that mental illness could be biological in nature. I could not let myself see its prevalence in my family because they were not open to it.
>
> My family is very religious - I am not now. There seem to be two approaches from Evangelicals at least, and I think Christianity in general - one is very loving and supportive, the way I would think Jesus was. The other is very judgemental and harsh. I studied the Bible extensively as a child, and am convinced Christ would not want us to suffer. He would have wanted us to be happy, and if taking medication to correct a problem in our brains is a necessary part of that, so be it. I read a post once on Beliefnet by an Evangelical woman who was haunted by depression and her church told her it was sinful to take AD's. She found a Christian clinic and started Prozac, and her life was turned around. She liked to think of it as a gift from God.
>
> Anyway, all this rambling comes to a point. Because I gave in finally and decided to look at my manic depression from a different prespective, to stop denying that there was something wrong, and that I couldn't cure it by myself, or with antibiotics, I found a great relief. I gently opened the discussion with my family and found a very nice response, even though they are, again, still very religious.
>
> I feel firmly now that depression is an imbalance of some sort, though it's not quite clear yet. The meds give us a chance to be strong and healthy and that is what Christ, or Buddha, or we ourselves would and should want from this life.
>
> - K.
>
> P.S. Sorry, I ended up using this as a confessional, didn't I?;)Thank you so much, Kingfish; I needed to
hear what you had to say. I've been surprised
to realize that I still think from time to
time that I have some sort of character
flaw and that that is the cause of my illness.
Thanks again, Glenn
poster:Glenn Fagelson
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