Posted by sar on July 18, 2001, at 23:37:12
In reply to Re: pysch troubles » sar, posted by judy1 on July 18, 2001, at 13:33:42
Dear Yall,
thanks for the quickly wise responses. i appreciated all of it! I am not going to see this woman again--this saddens me, because she had seen me in all sorts of states and at my most extreme, but her mention of a bill 35 minutes into an hour-long session cuts into my heart. How could I pay her bill when I was locked up in the hospital? I wrote an Against Medical Advice Letter, which they rejected. There was no way to pay on the given day.
buzzed, it was easy for me to mutter "bitch" and stalk out. i do not regret it, i think she ought to know that she hurt me. i would not have said that 100% sober, but...
well, i'm going to write a letter apologizing for calling her a bitch and requesting that she not bill me for our last 3 seessions because i found them neither psychoanalytical nor therapeutic.
i agree with not being insulting. i'm not usually like that...but with some alkie in me belly...? ah, i'll call a bitch a bitch freely.
IF she felt like a failure, I feel she should have called me back at the hospital, not brought up financial matters in the middle of our session. She has spiky hair and wears expensive clothes and has dark circles under her eyes. At this moment among many, she disgusts me.
i'll keep my side of the street clean because it's Right. at this point i am so utterly baffled by her lack o concern that i don't know what else to say. i will write her a letter tonight--she deserves an explanation (but don't i?) and I will send it to her.
i'm disappointed. i don't know what my problem is--i don't want a silly coddling therapist, i really respected the scientific value of psychoanalysis, but this woman--well, i don't understand why i made her so angry when she could have done so much more.
is this just miscommunictaion?
sar
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