Posted by dreamer on July 18, 2001, at 8:04:23
My mother is a mental violent alchoholic she mentally abused me for a long time I lived in constant anxiety.
She made me feel guilty that when I was born she got ill+ my father and brother left. I was left alone with her and her drunken paranioa and I may be wrong but I may have been sexually abused by her.
If that wasn't enough she married someone who was nuts got ill took years to die and the graphic details are so nightmarish to write. This just a snippet of my crap childhood anyway from being withdrawn I got angry now I have no love or respect for her.
How do I tell her I've had enough-she pulls me down makes me feel bad about myself I know it's bad but I've even fantasied about killing her.
Without the anger how can I do it?
I thought I'd got her out of my life but got a "nice" letter today asking to phone shall I call her or leave it.
This I should be able to sort out for myself but I'm not to perky at the mo.
poster:dreamer
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