Posted by Patches on July 15, 2001, at 13:09:50
guess I'm okay... just so tired. took lorazapam to sleep...just need to sleep. all i ever wanted was to feel love to feel someone cared. he doesn't care enough about my feelings; he doesn't care about my pain. he deals with me by keeping distance. that's safer for him but not for me. it's my fault for hoping in fairy tales. I don't want people to feel bad because I can't reach their expectations. I'm the weakling.
he thinks I don't need meds. I stopped them for the summer. Probably a mistake. Maybe I'd built tolerance to them. I'll start them again in the fall when there will be more stresses to deal with... stresses that I'm not sure i can handle anymore. Who knows what will happen between now and then.
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