Posted by sar on April 21, 2001, at 22:38:30
Hi, everyone.
I'm pretty down tonight. It seems the hardest bump to hit is actually feeling better because I'm no longer trudging around indulging myself at will just because I'm Depresst,it's when you actually walk out the door and get involved in real life again that the shit hits the fan because then you can really feel bad about living again, because this time you're living for real. Or not for real because it feels like a stilted farce because you just don't want to be doing it this way.
I'd felt hopeful because I was feeling better; now I'm frightened because this amount of energy (an increase) is dangerous. The ride up from the lowest point isn't fun. It's worse than being at the lowest point.
Does this make any sense?
poster:sar
thread:5755
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