Posted by ksvt on February 6, 2001, at 21:18:04
In reply to Horrid Day, posted by CarolynAnn on February 6, 2001, at 18:32:08
>CarolynAnn - all this unfortunately sounds very familiar. Sometimes I can't turn off the suicide voice which is an oppressive one. My therapist tried to get me to visualize a stop sign, but that was pretty lame. It's particularly awful that the voice is there even when I'm doing something very low stress and pleasurable like watching a school concert. You are not crazy - I just think there are times when we're tired and stressed and it takes very little to trigger depressive feelings and to feel overwelmed and inadequate. Lately I've been having some success if I just really try to lower my expectations for myself when I'm feeling like you are. That may mean not dwelling on what a bad day I had or how poorly I'm working. It certainly doesn't work all the time, but it occasionally makes it a little easier to ride out those bad feelings. K
Can anyone tell me how to shut off that interior voice that says things like "nobody likes you anymore", "you're not doing your job as well as you used to" "you don't belong anywhere" etc. etc. etc. I did this to myself all day at work, even though I kept trying "thought-stopping". By the end of the day I was in tears. I know this is all in my head. I know I am imagining it because I am depressed. But knowing isn't the same as feeling. All "things" in my life are going well, while I am feeling like I'm losing it. Like, how can I be thinking suicide sounds good (no, I don't think I ever would) when we are in the process of adopting two boys who make me very happy? Somebody tell me I'm not crazy, please!
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